thebeautifultruth
In my heart, pain is repeating.
All over again,
Once again.
There's one other thing I never knew what love could do,
And that was with love, it came pain too.
What's deceiving is your eyes,
That I knew now, spoke only lies
That sweet emotion,
Now a deception.
I loved you today,
I don't know if I'll love you tomorrow.
For life is meant to be a wonder,
Always something we have to ponder.
Supposed to be a sad version of the previous poem.
And I say...
7:20 PM
But they wouldn't fly
Originally uploaded by jamwithsand
I feel immature.
Climbed out of bed this morning, it was such an emotionalmoment to part with my beloved bed.
In the morning, pledge and temperature taking in class.
Then it was Chemistry. Nothing much about salts, but I listened but like towards the last 10 minutes when I think Miss Yep was saying something important I fell asleep. I couldn't help it ):
Ong Lai and Dimeng were talking about a giant toilet bowl and falling into it. Was funny haahahah
During Biology, Mr Lim wasn't around so some trainee came in instead, called Miss Tay. I just stood but I didn't exactly bother greeting her. She just keeps shouting, like super PMS. She went, "Did you guys bring your workbook?' 'No?!' 'How many people brought?' 'How many people didn't bring?' 'How many people didn't do?' "How many poeple didn't complete?" "How many people completed everything?' In this very bad tone. And she went 'You know, I cannot teach you if you don't do your work, I give you till 9.20 to complete it' 'I gave you time to do homework NOT TO TALK' "No discussion please" "Do page 58 too" "Do chapter 9", WHICH APPARENTLY WE HAVE NOT LEARNT. "I shall just give you till 9.40 to complete your work"
She just kept shouting. So far, I see nothing great about her. She can't even dress. Top with vertical stripes and skirt with horizontal stripes? Whose eyes does she want to murder.
There was one question about an apple tree. So, the phloems leading to apple Y was removed, what will happen to the apple. Then Abdul said that water can still travel into the apple coz apple got juice HAHAHAHA Then I said, When I was in thailand, they had this orange minute maid commercial that all the oranges burst into water. and I was like, CAN PLAY WATER BOMB WITH APPLE.
Anyway, then Harshanna passed me a present. It's a stuffed Bush Baby with GIGANTIC eyes, hehehehe. O_O Thank you Harshanna(:
Went to Chinese. Jun Xi was making a weird puckling sound at the locker area ._.
Lu Lao Shi was just going on and on about Hitler, so I fell asleep after listening to 40 minutes of the lesson and wole up 10 minutes later.
Recess, Chui Shan gave me marshmallows, gummies and two pairs of custom made earrings. I LIKE THEM A LOT. YES I DO!!
Tried not to feel hungry and decided to eat 1 tuna bun, I felt so guilty I didn't eat the other. It's so sinful.
English was just going through comprehensions and missed Shamilah asked me where I went that made me go on LOA. English Writing UNSW tomorrow. They make all Band 1 English students take it. 30 minutes to write an essay. Why oh why.
Math, Mr Wong asked me where I went that made me go on LOA. He gave us all these graph questions to do.
History, Miss Ranjini. Ohmygoddygosh. I was saying... Put on facebook, ________ is praying to god that Miss ________ will contact H1N1
Haha, we call her Anees's girlfriend now. HAHAHA
Completed the graphs questions and Travel Graphs 1a and copied Geog Notes from yesterday which was a lot.
Miss Ranjini was just going on about her ability to speak German and talking about Germany. Nothing much to listen to.
She said that Germans can't pronounce 'th' so when they say Happy Birthday, they say Happy Burstday. And Deepak said, they celebrating the day your mother's waterbag broke. HAHA
Tried to find Miss Yep. Outside staff room, Jerome told me Miss Yep moved to cyber room. So I went there and Joel told me Miss Yep at staff room. Then Timothy told me Miss Yep is with Hui Yee. Called Hui Yee and found out Miss Yep in meeting. I spent 20 minutes doing that.
Went home with Darrick coz I met him while walking out of school. and met Shiuan Wen on the way to MRT. Reached home and ate.like finally. So hungry. Saw a present on my table, from Wei De and his dad. Thank you(:
Googled jamwithsand. My work is appearing on a lot of weird websites and flickr tumblr blogs. Even appeared on some furniture web, don't ask me why it did, my picture has nothing to do with furniture. They didn't even credit me. Damn.
Well, I just see my work going all over the internet in many languages.
Saw that Mr Wong sent me the e-lesson thing at 10.54pm last night. What a goooooood time.
Did 1 3/4 Geog essays and stoned. I was sleepy but I just can't fall asleep and when I did, my mum woke me up to ask if I want to lights off. Ptfff.
I feel so bad, I told a lie on my birthday.
I feel like a stalker.
Dedicated to SOMEONE
Monday, June 29, 2009 10:12 PMHere goes.
SEAN
28-Jun-2009 11.58pm
Happy bday janice! (: dont be sad, i'm always here
Sean Teh
happy early 15th birthday janice!
may allllllll your wishes come true...(:
Yesterday at 11:39pm
HERE'S A VERY BIG THANK YOU to YOU
For making me smile and my day much much better.
:)
Bragging
6:12 PMLet me thank the people who wished me Happy Birthday..
Facebook,
Shannon.
Melvin who states he's married to Jeremy Ng. LOL!
Grace
TRISSY, who I MISS MISS MISS
Kay Hwee.
See Toh, well i didn't actually know him
CHENG TAO, ahhahaha. Whenever I talk to him it reminds me of those p6 days, our yellow group people were like the BEST. I remember I used to stick these stickers on his face during Evil Zombie Butt's lesson and teacher was giving him weird look.
Li Ying, well I don't call her Shalom.
Ong Lai aka Yong Liang
Text,
Kevin, who apparently didn't drop by because he's sick and need go see doctor
Aleithia, my baby :D Who told me dance party cancelled ): And told me to do english homework
Shiuan Wen :D
Hui Xiang
MSN
Weilin
Sharon
Bryan
Tagboard
Chui Shan, with my marshmallows and gummy 8D
Okay, so nothing happened today.
Watched TV with sis. Totally Spies. Laughing away at Ned Declassified School Survival Guide, iCarly and DRAKE AND JOSH.
Drake Bell 8D The show's so funny, that was why Lene, Car and I watch it everydy at 7.30pm during p6 :D Drake is hoooooooooooooot
Anyway, Mum gave me a Harley-Davidson badge thingy. Quite cool :D
Dad says he's gonna get me the 500D :O Maybe I shall ask my uncle for the underwater case then. Hehehe.
My sister gave me an OP t-shirt and a Cotton On cardigan. I likey the cardigan.
Watched Marley and Me. I was like apparently holding back a lot of tears at the end. SO TOUCHING when Marley died and Owen Wilson was like having this very emotional moment. Awwww.
In the middle of the movie, Miss Yep called me. Hahaha and told me to not 'luan luan pao' Oops. Teehee.
Yun Chuan told me about work.
Talked to Tan Hao. I remember him during P5. He always give teacher attitude when he gets scolded. And Mu Qing used to like him and we called him Bai Ma Wang Zi white XD Yon Jun (Lene) was Lan Ma Wang Zi blue, Yi Cheng (Zhi Ying) was Qing Ma Wang Zi green, Cheng Tao (Pauline) was Hong Ma Wang Zi red, and Jaryl (*coughs*) was Hei Ma Wang Zi black due to his tan. All these memories. Hahahaha
Okay, reading Yew Rong's note on Facebook just now...
• Tell me something about 17:
[Junxi] He used to have mushroom hair which bounces HAHA
(thumbs up) he shouldn't have cut his hair. HAHAHA
I miss 2/4 `08
I'm small.
9:50 AM
I'm small.
Originally uploaded by jamwithsand
Let me tell you about how my day went so far.
I'M BORED. because everyone's in school.
I woke up at 6.55am because of my alarm that wouldn't stop ringing till 7.05am. Oh well.
Then, I got all dressed up and tied my hair.
I received Happy Birthday texts from people who all realised I couldn't go to school.
First it was Shirlene at 5.59am. Siting at 6.35am. Yew Rong at 7.13am. Jinhu at 8.28am. WenJie at 8.58am.
Okay, so I left house at 8am to take pictures and walked back at 8.35am. I had to make sure none of my neighbours were like watching. It's so embarrassing to go around with THAT hair.
Took a lot of funny photos and was laughing with my maid. Hehe.
Came home and started editting photos.
I'm so bored I might even do homework.
About 3 more hours till Kevin drop by with my birthday present 8D
I'm 15
12:05 AMI can't believe I'm 15. I feel old.
I was feeling sad about 2 hours ago. Now no more.
Thanks to all those who wished me Happy Birthday.
Junxi:D says:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Shing Yi says:
hey. happy birthday!
Shing Yi says:
hahaha
JANICE says:
thanks(:
See says:
hey.. seems like its your bday today haha (from junxi's pm)
See says:
well.. happy birthday!
JANICE says:
haha thanks(:
JANICE says:
15 is such an old age
See says:
lol your brain stops growing..
JANICE says:
I KNOW
JANICE says:
that's why i've been doing homework just now (Y)
See says:
haha.. interesting
JANICE says:
yes yes
WILLY, YOU DON'T HAVE TO REMIND ME D:
John Wong happy birthday :D
Sean Teh happy early 15th birthday janice!may allllllll your wishes come true...(:
Liang Min, who sent me the MOST unique message EVERRR
Yun Chuan, whom I was texting about bribing Khaw Boon Wan for the past hour
Jerome, my lab partner
Hui Yee
Dan, who wished me Happy Birthday earlier on
Alvin and WenJie who fell for Jun Xi's trick
Courage says:
hey happy birthday to you! :D
JANICE says:
thanks, damian(:
JANICE says:
haha cute dp btw :D
Courage says:
haha yeah
Courage says:
dogs are cute. :)
JANICE says:
yes yes
Tan Hao happy b'lated birthday girl stuck at home :D
haha thanks! i shall not like khaw boon wan for this. hmph. he's evil.
Valerie, my Flickr friend. OH MY GOD it's your birthday!?!!? HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! holy crap. lol you don't feel any different?
And my sister who sang Happy Burbday to me about 1 hour ago.
I'm trying to feel 15.
Tomorrow, I'm going for a shoot.
Am I supposed to feel happy?
Sunday, June 28, 2009 8:27 PMToday, I woke up at 8.59am and saw that Sean woke up 53 minutes late. Anyway, I went back to lie on my mattress and stared at the ceiling wondering why it was so warm. And my mum walked in and made me go out for breakfast. But I didn't eat. And I ate dao suan an hour later. Went to do Geog and stopped after a few minutes and came out to watch Wo Cai Wo Cai Wo Cai Cai Cai. Got dressed in my pregnant woman shirt and jeans and went to Causeway. Apparently they only had 2 sets of C905 left. Stupid. Mood spoiler. Walked around and bought red earsticks :D Erm, in Helen, there's this SUPER nice ring, ahhh, $24.90): Went home and went to Astons. Ate Grilled Fish with Herbs. Yummm. Walked around, bought green highlighter, went to see Cotton On and went home. Slacked, did homework, went to cut onions and started crying, did homework, went to get honey, slacked, did homework. I realise I slack a lot. Especially on the last day I remain 14.
Texted Kevin to tell him I'll be going to school so he doesn't need to drop by with my present. Hehe. OH but Lorena just said dance is cancelled, okay.
I don't really look forward to Jun Xi's birthday present. In case he gives me something very wrong like a b..book
Ehh I want go out): WHY on my birthday. My sad life.
So I'll be spending some quality time with my dear sister tomorrow.
I was reading IM history.
(11:29 PM) SEAN-Y:
brush teeth
(11:29 PM) JANICE:
with toothpaste
(11:29 PM) SEAN-Y:
cum
(11:30 PM) JANICE:
ew
(11:30 PM) JANICE:
how can you brush your teeth with cum
(11:30 PM) SEAN-Y:
no
(11:30 PM) SEAN-Y:
how can YOU
(11:31 PM) JANICE:
no YOU
(11:31 PM) SEAN-Y:
no you
(11:31 PM) JANICE:
you have a supply of it
(11:31 PM) JANICE:
endless supply of it in fact
(11:33 PM) SEAN-Y:
._.
(11:33 PM) SEAN-Y:
you stole it
(11:33 PM) JANICE:
ew that sounds so wrong
(4:42 PM) SEAN-Y:
i like sex
(4:42 PM) JANICE:
sex addict, omg sean
Oh this should totally go on his blog.
I can't wait for Thursday and Friday.
TRANSFORMERS WITH LENE :D
And we're going to exchange presents :D
And shop :D
Yay
Today is today
Saturday, June 27, 2009 9:35 PMThis morning, could barely wake up. Went to tuition. Came back. Went to tuition. Saw DARON! Omg, yes! Last time I saw him was on 1st Jan, yeah because I went to his house with my Mum and Sis to visit them. Hun Quan was there too. So I walked to the MRT station with him. Wow even he knows about the Jia Min thing!
Came home and went to Grandma's house. Janelle is soooo cute :D Fed her mango, hehe. BIG EYES. Hmm, Grace started crying so Janelle started crying then my sis and I pretended crying :D
My uncle bought 5kg worth of crab ._. The shell super hard! I was like jabbing it with my fork and no use, so Alex korkor helped me. He can speak thai too because he used to work in Thailand. Aunty Agnes is going back to NZ tomorrow): She said Jasmin just won the regionals debate! So awesome! She's going to represent New Zealand in the world debate in Dubai in August! So cool.
Anyway, came home and scanned old photos of my dad's side of the family from the 1970s. My dad looks so much like my sister!
Okay that's all. Tmr I'm going to buy new phone. AND must call my uncle about the camera! Whee. Lalala
Time
5:46 PMShe opened her eyes when she heard him turn around. She was awake all along and was only pretending to sleep. She could not let him see her like this. She cursed and swore inwardly at fate and how things went, but tried to comfort herself that there was nothing she could do to turn back time and avoided everything from happening, avoided that argument with him. She needed company right then and he did come, but she couldn't work up the courage to face him. She closed her eyes and held back her tears, listening to the door click shut as he silently walked out.
He stood for a while outside the ward, the same old words from the letter playing in his head. Those words were enough to make him frantic. He hated himself for not having been there to save her or look after her.
It was only a matter of time that would determine it all.
Lies, they were all lies
Those days
Friday, June 26, 2009 10:42 PM
Racial Harmony
Reminds me how I was on it last time haha
Jun Xi vandalises with larvita
Tau Pok's atempted rape
Lol sec 1
Sec 1, I actually drew on my face
Shing Yi ;o
Haha Tau Pok! Where we used to sit right behind ._.
Who sleeps during Sports Carnival?
Sean Wong raping Jun Xi with Wai Kit being the apprentice. Lol!
Wake up, my love, for the day is yet to come
11:00 AM
In my dream, I felt your heart beating.
Originally uploaded by jamwithsand
I love this photo.
Anyway, yesterday I was so pissed off at the stupid Challenger salesman. Okay, he was like, you shouldn't buy a 50D because you don't have experience, blah blah blah, so you should get a 500D. Really totally made me super angry I walked away from him. Here's the thing, I'm not going into Challenger again. Stupid guy. When I say I boycott a place, I'm serious. Like how I boycotted North Point Popular.
Okay, so I was playing Flags with Sean at 1am last night. I was TOTALLY owning it.
Hmm, I'm watching Shopaholic with my sister now.
I wonder what to wear later. It's such a dilemma, I asked Aleithia what she's wearing. So now I'm in a bigger dilemma. I shall settle on jeans...
Omg Hugh Dancy's English accent is so sexaye!!! It's so Mr Darcy material. ahhh.
Dream of the world
10:57 AMToday's Shahkrit Yamnarm and Cheng Tao's birthday.
After falling a sleep past 3am in the morning, I woke up at 8am.
And started reading the parts with Cecelia and Robbie in Atonement.
'he spoke the three simple words that no amount of bad art or bad faith can ever quite cheapen'
All because of you
Wednesday, June 24, 2009 10:39 PMIn my dream, I felt your heart beating,
In my head, love was repeating.
It was repeating all over again,
I fell in love with you once again.
I never knew what love could do,
Until I met you.
They say when we're in love, there's nothing for them we wouldn't do,
Now I know, it's true.
That four letters that join you and I,
When we look into each other's eye.
That sweet emotion,
As vast as the ocean.
Some days were happy, some were sad,
Some days were bad, but none were regrets.
Because I knew that when you're next to me,
The sun would still shine undoubtingly.
I love you today,
I'll love you tomorrow.
You make me smile, you make me laugh, you make me cry,
And you don't even need to try.
We'll dance under the stars,
And hold hands while chasing cars.
We'll lie on the green grass,
And smile at each other as we trespass.
We'll kiss beneath the milky twilight,
And think of each other throughout the night.
And get no sleep that night.
Black and white phrase
Tuesday, June 23, 2009 8:48 PM
Originally uploaded by jamwithsand
Meef, my sad life is boring.
):
I love this picture. Geese :D At the temple I went to last Saturday. You can see chickens behind too.
Versions
8:32 PMThen he sang it in Japanese.
Then, girls sang it.
Then they have it in Korean, well he sang it too but there isn't a mv, so it's a girl singing it.
The worst one is the Chinese version because the lyrics is like all wrong and he's not dancing.
And finally English.
Breathing.
Monday, June 22, 2009 6:03 PMSo I shall blog everything in a nutshell.
10 June
Left for the airport. Did Biology on the plane, and like fell asleep halfway.
Met with granddad and went for lunch at Seri Centre. It was a good thing I don't really understand Thai pick-up lines. Went around and went to Seacon to buy grocerry at Lotus and went to my grandparent's house. I don't know why, buy I started writing about mini sized chilli padi.
Went home and did chores. Had dinner while watching Sawan Bieng. Then Buang Hong came on. Yay yay yay, the story is really very fun :D The mansion in the serial is the same mansion as the one in Sawan Bieng. Hahaha, and they used the same car with the number 888.
11 June
I don't know, but I woke up at 6.15am. I slept at like 11pm.
My camera got stuck on the tripod stand. ): So I just removed the entire piece so i can carry my camera around with me.
Watched Channel News Asia and some celebrity gossip news.
Went to grandparent's house and had breakfast. Had my hair cut, it's like shoulder length again, layered :D Started watching Jao Ying Kor Tan with my great grandma :D
Went to Seacon for lunch. Went around buying things. Bought a shirt.
Came home and watched Sawan Bieng last episode while having dinner. Ohmygosh, the ending was like so so so nice. Then Buang Hong came on.
12 June
Woke up around 7. Vacuumed the house and watched Channel News Asia. Then somehow while cleaning the house, i hit my foot against the table leg and it started bleeding):
Went to grandparent's house and watched Jao Ying Kor Tan with my great grandma while my granddad and mum went to get my dad at the airport. I like non-fat milk.
Parents arrived ant went to Central Bangna. And somehow, I saw this person I saw yesterday there again.
Went to Seacon. It started to rain and the sky was beautiful.
Went home and watched Jao Ying Kor Tan. The serial on weekends is Wang Nam Kang, some ghost show. So I decided to watch Jao Ying Kor Tan till 10-ish and I realised Wang Nam Kang's storyline is damn fun.
13 June
Woke up at 6.12am. Went to the market with parents. Bought a tank top and this top.
Then I dressed up weirdly and went out. Went to town, Emporium.
I bought this white chocolate cheesecake there :D Really really delish. 105 baht for this tiny piece, hehe.
Went to The Mall Bangkapi next, because I wanted to go to Tawana. Bought 2 headbands, 3 pairs of earrings, 1 ring. Didn't go around much because it was really warm.
Came home and watched a bit of the 6.30pm serial and went out again to Big C. Bought 3 pairs of earrings and a hair clip and a headband.
Went to grandparent's house. Din Nam Lom Fai!! My great grandma was watching, but I only watched like 2 mins and dad made me go home.
Granddad dropped us home because they needed to car to pick up my grandma and uncle from the airport that night.
Watched Wang Nam Kang, Daddy Duo and some reality show called the Trainer. Haha switching channels.
14 June
Woke up at 7 and I lazed around till 7.30am.
Took pictures and took a taxi to Seacon. Saw the stalker guard at the guard house, ha. I read like the whole photosynthesis chapter while parents were at the bank.
Bought 2 tops and 3 badges. Someone bought the shirt I wanted, mood spoiler, very. Had Starbucks with parents, shared a Green Tea Latte with my mum. Really nice :D
Went to grandparent's house and saw my darling COACH SHOES. :D :D :D I was like, MY BABY! Grandma gave me a bracelet but it broke, but whatever, I kept the remains so I can play with it. My aunt came over, but my cousins didn't. Yoot was a tuition when he had home quarantine as his school has like 100 over H1N1 cases. I was bored all alone on my own.
At last, everyone decided to go for dinner at my neighbour's famous restaurant.
Went home and watched Wang Nam Kang, Daddy Duo and the Trainer. Somehow, I started bragging about this dumb music video I saw on tv. I'm just weird.
On the news, I saw Pae Arrak and his band, Slur, playing for some Fashion Show with Pancake modeling 8D
15 June
I had a dream which I forgot.
Went to grandparent's house and went to Central Bangna for Fuji with my uncle and grandmother.
At Asia Books, I saw a book called, 101 things to do before you die. I flipped through and one said, have sex in a toilet cubicle. Ew?
My grandma bought a stuffed dog for this kid in New York, so I was like carrying it around and everyone was staring. Oh well.
Went to Seri Centre for some food. The pick-up line guy wasn't there, good.
Bought 1 shades and 1 weird specs. Was wearing it around, and people were staring. Hahahahahahahaha.
Went to Seacon. The shirt I wanted wasn't there so I bought another instead.
Sent them home and went home.
Watched Jao Ying Kor Tan while having dinner. Then on Mondays on Tuesdays, there's another serial, Sao Ha. The same actor from Buang Hong is on it too. Quite fun, but I don't like the film quality.
16 June
I had a dream which I also forgot.
Woke at 6, then 6.35, then 8.35. Lethargic.
Watched Jao Ying Kor Tan while having breakfast. When Dad came home from golf, I went to watch Up with my mum at Seacon. Love it! Super cute cartoon.
Walked around and went to TrueMove's internet cafe. Used a little, spoke to Sean, and such.
Went home and watched Jao Ying Kor Tan. It's really very very funny. I laughed a little too much.
Watched a little Sao Ha whcih wasn't at the fun part so I skipped it.
17 June
Woke at 6-ish. And went back to sleep till 8 :D
Watched Jao Ying Kor Tan while having breakfast. And after which, went to grandparent's house. Went to town, Central Chit Lom. Ate at some high end food court, yes like oner plate of something is 100 over baht ._.
Went to World Trade where i saw this celebrity but I don't know who he is because he's like from my mother's generation. Next was Platinum, where I bought a new bag for school. Saw this 2 guys in uniforms, full-on make up and handbags, walking along Pratunam road. Oh gosh, like blood red lips.
Sent grandma and uncle home and went to Seri Centre. The pick-up-line guy was there.
Came home and met our next door neighbour who told us the other house next to ours is rented out to a Swedish guy with a Thai wife. And she asked if we want to rent our house. 50,000 baht/month. I like our house a lot.
Watched Jao Ying Kor Tan, then Buang Hong. Ah.
18 June
I dreamt and forgot it, oh well. Woke at 7 and lazed around till 8.
Watched Jao Ying Kor Tan while having breakfast. Last episode.
Went to CCF next, the headquarters was just next to my estate. Asked about charity donations and such.
Dropped by the bank nearby and went to grandparent's house. Parents went off and I watched this show called Su Fan Wi Lan Don with my great grandma and grandma.They used the same mansion again! The giant one in Sawan Bieng. I don't like it, I fell asleep while watching, though I like the actors. Willy Macintosh and Aon Sarawut Marthong :D
At 4.30pm, went to Pasar Malam with my grandma. Walked home and went out again to buy more food.
At 9 plus, parents came with sis who just came from the airport. Was watching Buang Hong with great grandma, grandma, uncle and his girlfriend. Sigh, at 10pm dad forced me to leave.
So when I got home, I missed 10 minutes of Buang Hong plus commercial.
19 June
I had an amazing dream which I actually remembered because he was in it.
Wok up 7 plus and went to grandparent's house. Dropped grandma and uncle at the dental clinic and went to Emporium in town where we met up with them. Looked around. Took catalogues of Sririta Jensen's bra line. Haha.
Then, saw Mango on sale. Like cheap! Bought a tank top.
Went to the Four Face Buddha at Erawan hotel. Had to go back and thank for all the wishes that came true. Then, went to Platinum. Bought 1 bracelet, don't know how many earrings. Tried to find keychains but the shop wasn't there): Sigh.
On the way home, everyone was debating on the highway exits, so we went in circles.
Went to see this condominium at Sukhumvit 101. Not bad, I like it but it's like really small. One room/ studio houses for single working people. But the good thing was that right outside the entrance, it's the stairs up to the BTS train station. My parents were deciding to buy it but I think they decided to wait.
Dropped them off, went to Carefour, came home and watched Wang Nam Kang.
20 June
Today was amazing.
Woke up 5 plus, close to 6. Dropped by the market nearby and went to Aunt's house. Reached at like 7 plus.
My dad and uncle went off to play gold and my mum, sis and I sat there having breakfast and watched Home Alone 3 on Star Movies.
My aunt and cousin finally woke up and while waiting for them to get dress, we 3 fell alseep on the sofa while watching Death Note 2. Oh well.
Went to the temple. I felt happy. Like, just happy. I kept smiling, carefree feeling. Really love that temple, even though it's like not grand for anything. I really like the monk we spoke to. He's so calm, and he taught me many things. We waited for him to have his meal and he spoke to us. I don't know, but after listening to what he said, I feel like I can be a better person. All the rules of Buddhism and the key to success and all. Next trip, I must go there again. I'm going to find out how to get to Bukit Merah, because I want to go to the Temple there. And I still have to go to the one at Chinatown!
Did some fortune stick thing, I wished to win photo competitions and the paper said, if you wait, it'll come to you. Okay I will.
Took pictures of some geese and chickens :D
Went to Central Chaeng Wattana opposite my aunt's estate.
Saw Yoot. He's like so so so freaking tall. Sheesh.
Went to grandparetn's house then the park near my house where I got attacked by red ants. Like seriously, the ENTIRE area was infested with them. Okay, I freaked and swatted them away. I felt so sinful. One of the rules is to not kill or harm animals. I totally ditched my sandal there and ran out and asked a park ranger to help me retrieve it. Ant bites ): Couldn't differentiate from mosquito bites XD
Went to the restaurant. Karaoke :D Damn fun. Took a lot of pictures. Yoot and my uncles sang almost every song. P'Yok and my sis didn't want to sing): Yoot sings really well, like very well. Told him to go for AF or The Star, singing competitions. Haha he says he's gonna form a band next year. I asked him if the gays still like him and he was like,' Nah, a girl likes me now.' lolllol.
The Sawan Bieng theme song, he sang it twice in a row. Probably one of my favourite songs.
After it all, went home. Sigh, this kinda fun is amazing. I love my mum side of relatives.
Went home and watched the last little bit of Wang Nam Kang.
21 June
Woke up 7. Went to the marlet and bought a ring that is very big.
Watched the second part of Death Note 2 with my sis while having breakfast.
Went to Seacon. We had Starbucks, Green Tea Latte :D
Bought a shirt and a bag, which is very very big.
While having lunch, this fish bone got stuck in my throat. Catfish. Gosh, luckily it came out. Hurt like mad.
Walked around and went to Seri Centre. My parents went to this foot reflexology thingy so my sister and I went to get Dairy Queen and KFC XD XD Hehe. I don't know how but my sis started talking about stealing this little boy's food.
Went home and played on the swing with my sis at the playground in my estate. Tiny swing. Then, went by neighbour's house and took pictures of the dog :D So cuuuuuute
Went out to Big C. Bought a top. Walked around and went to Carefour.
Came home and watched Wang Nam Kang.
After that, started packing.
22 June
Woke up at 6.30 and started packing.
Had breakfast while watching the celebrity gossip news. Did chores and help pack.
Went to CCF and donated 6,000 baht to sponsor a kid for a year, didn't have time to choose the kid we want): So just told the guy the criterias we wanted and let him choose for us.
Went to grandparent's house and took pictures. Wrestled with my uncle while trying to tickle each other. We're childish.
Went to the airport and bought a gossip magazine in Thai. On the plane, I actually managed to read it. I feel so proud of myself. :D :D The May issue, Pae Arrak and Anne Thongprasom were on the cover. Argh. This issue, there's a lot about Pae Arrak and Aom Akkaphan water sport's love so it's okay.
And the home sweet home. And went to grandma's house.
In Thailand I had like bad hair day everyday. The water there has a lot of minerals, so my hair is like messy messy. Well but it's layered so it looks okay at least.
Sigh I want to go back there. It's so fun there.
Wow it's so late now.
Bring me on a carousel ride,
Tuesday, June 9, 2009 10:59 PMjust you and me under the dark starry june night sky,
that moment in june
Today I suddenly woke up at 8.59am on the dot.
Practically slacked the whole day and saw Sean's text of stonning in the toilet.
Packed luggage and played facebook lame games.
Watched Sawan Bieng over dinner and packed luggage. Bringing the last two discs there to watch hehe, the show is getting damn nice. Ken is such an amazing actor.
Was laughing away with my sister just now at old photos. Haha.
Then I finally got the computer to blog.
So basically, I'm going to Thailand tomorrow. No computer no phone no cable tv, haha.
Many people asked me to get them things, I'll try my very best.
I'm wondering if I should bring Chem to read there. I'm bringing Bio homework there already.
Maybe I should do the last bit of Geography 7.1 then go to bed and wake up at 6-ish or 7am tmr, need to leave house before 8am, so early. Flight at 10.45am. Reach Thailand at Thai time 12.05pm which is Singapore 1.05pm.
I can't wait to see my Coach shoes. Yay.
And meet my Uncle and Grandparents and relatives. Especially my COUSINS. They're my favourite cousins haha. Damn funny people.
Too bad my sister will only be going for the last 4 days): Will be lonely there, ugh.
See you all in 12 days! 22 June
A moment in June, it was February.
Monday, June 8, 2009 10:16 PMA moment in June, it was February.
He was too late
One second was how long it took to determine his fate
If only he could see this occurring earlier
He would not have been a failure
For he had been so caught up with his own idea of happiness
To have realize the pain he was causing her was endless
She could take it no longer
And shut herself from the outside world, for her past memories were much merrier
20 years was how long it took
For him to see the true meaning of happiness he once overlooked
She was his true meaning of the word happiness
Those days spent with her were always endless
The first time he met her on the beach
Was the top level of joy he can now never reach
That one woman he loved and will love forever
Was now gone like a fallen flower carried away by the river
No matter her condition
He’ll not stop loving her until death is the only resolution
He was forgotten by her now
And he has to accept that nothing would be the same now
Tears he shed for her will never end
As he pray for this nightmare to end
But he knew deep down inside it would never end
He was the reason why it started, the only reason for all these.
This was his punishment
It was all his fault from the start
Buy sorry is too late
One word can never change his fate
It is what we call destiny
A moment in June, it was February.
A moment in June, it was February.
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A moment in June, it was February.
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A dark version.
I'm so in love with this 2 photos. I like the emotion, I had this ideas in mind and I really got it the way I wanted it. I'm not on pointe of anything though people say it looks like ._.
I was very inspired by Waan from 4 Romance and the trailer and pictures from A Moment in June and the ending of February. I like the cinematography of the movies and I'm glad these 2 pictures showed it. The scarves to me shows the olden days feel of Waan and A Moment in June.
Anyway I was watching Game Loon Ruk while doing my entire stack of filing. At least I wasn't wasting time watching shows!
Kinda funny, the main actor and actress are funny together when they act.
Then my dad called to tell me to wait for him so we can watch Sawan Bieng together over dinner.
See, my dad is addicted 101! Always like that, he keeps saying he's not and gives the excuse to see how it ends. Pttffff.
My mum watches too. Hehe.
Got to start packing luggage tomorrow.
Plan to complete chemistry by tonight.
And the last bit of Kinematics I have left.
I wonder what to study in Thailand.
I wonder about the lives we live.
A moment in June, it was February.
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A moment in June, it was February.
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Last night I actually did some work while talking to my mum about Thai celebrities ha.
Then I wrote in my diary along with poems.
I watched February yesterday evening. I only watched it to hear him speak English and see how sad the show was so I fast forwarded the entire thing.
The guy died in her arms while she was hugging him. So sad.
I'm not going to watch anything today.
So I was supposed to go cut hair with my sister today and she forgot I was going with her so she left without me.
I'm upset.
And decided to take some pictures and checked out streams on Flickr.
I shall start doing some work now.
I've been eating my plate of brunch for almost an hour. I'm not hungry):
I cried.
Sunday, June 7, 2009 5:00 PM4 Romance.
The 1st film, kiss, was short. This guy whose girlfriend was going to be stolent by another guy. It's sweet(:
The 2nd film, shy. About this couple who broke up 2 years ago because the guy left her as he felt that he's poor and the girl is rich and they were never meant to be. But the ending they got together after 3 days on an isolated island together. I didn't know to cry or smile at the end.
The 3rd film, sweet. (Shahkrit :D) At the start, a person narrates that time is like water, water flows forward and it can never go backwards and the things that go with it can never be retrieved. Shane a workaholic. On his wife, Waan (which means sweet), 40th birthday, he left for a business trip. Waan told him that if he walks out that door, they're done. But he still did as he told her with this job, it meant happiness. He walked out at 10.05am. At 10.10am, Waan took out old photos and videos on her 20th birthday, the first time they met. She saw this pocket watch he gave her on that day and threw it on the floor and it got hidden under this table in a corner and it stopped running. At 10.15am, she found her dog dead and that's when everything started moving backwards. She went crazy. So when Shane returns, he realised that his wife was mentally not right, so brought her to the doctor. He told Shane that his wife's memory is now moving backwards, and he can still save her if he tries hard enough, to the day that meant the most to them both. If not that opportunity will never come again. Being a workaholic, Shane was too busy. He gets promoted and everything but as he got older he was demoted. Everyday, his wife was being the same as their past, wearing same clothes, saying same things, through the miscarriage, pregnancy and stuff. When they were 60, Shane saw the pocket watch under the table and retrieved it, and he went to look back at old pictures and videos and realise he could still save her (okay I was getting really sad at this part) and he realised that her birthday was coming, the day they first met 40 years ago, that day that can make everything okay. So he brought her to the beach where they first met. (sobbing here). That night, his boss called him and told him that he's fired. So he got really sad and was drinking the night away. The next morning, he couldn't find where Waan has went and he went to search for her. He saw this father and son playing with a beach ball and suddenly he remembered what the doctor once told him 20 years ago, to go back to that day that meant everything as she can be saved. He looks at his watch, 10.05am. And his mind was going back now, to the time they met, when he told her,'Hi my name is Shane, nice to meet you.' She said,'Hi I'm Waan.' 'So why are you at the beach?' 'It's my birthday.' 'Here take this' And he gave her the watch, on the watch, the time was 10.15am. So he runs to look for her and found her. He went to the same spot, the same place and he said the same lines, 'Hi my name is Shane, nice to meet you.' But she smiles at him, then walks away. (okay at this part, I'm bawling like shit) He looks at his watch, 10.16am, he was 1 second too late. And he realised that day was the day he found the true meaning of happiness, 40 years ago. He started remembering the times they spent together on the beach and he realise no amount of work he does could replace the happiness he had with her. (Crying so badly I needed tissues). Then it changes to when they're really old and she was in bed. He took out a birthday cake that says, 'Happy 14th Birthday.' And she said, 'Uncle, why are you giving me a birthday cake?' But he just smiles and starts to cry. 'You know, next time when I grow up, I want to marry a guy like you.' And he just continues crying and she says. She's forgotten how much he had once meant to her. Then it ends. (I don't know, I was sobbing so badly.)
So I decided to watch the 28 minutes and 16 seconds film again but I didn't cry, because I suddenly realise how every event in the film clicks together.
The 4th film, Dream, was crap so I didn't watch.
That's all.
I never cried so much while watching a show before.
I was reading this girl from taiwan or something blogging about Shahkrit / Chakrit.
It was damn funny... I think she repeated the word 'MAN' 10 times in 2 lines.
I want to watch his movies...
A moment in june.. where he acts as a gay dude, I read threads saying he was kissing his co-actor. So heartbreaking to watch it.
Then there's 4 romances aka dream, sweet, shy, kiss. Like 4 short films put together. He acts the sweet one.. Apparently many people cried watching it because he lost his wife in the show.
Okay...
I'm halfway through Sawan Bieng.
And I realise I didn't even watch the end of Mafia Tee Ruk.
My mum was asking me if I wanted to cut his pictures from the magazine.
8D
Okay watch movie :D
Written more than a year ago.
Part I
I never thought that things would turn out this way
but I knew it would happen one day
I shouldn't be feeling like that
I shouldn't have fallen so bad
I was too head over heels
to realise how you feel
Maybe I was wrong all along
to have thought that it would last very long
I saw my future in my dreams
now I know reality is not like what it seems
No one seems to understand
They just don't give a damn
why do I even bother writing this?
things can't go on the way it is
but i'm in too deep
I can't breathe nor can i sleep
my mind is just so distracted
nothing turns out the way i expected
I'm trying to tell myself to live with it
enjoying every single bit
all this while i had been too blind
to see through deceit accumulating over time
now, whatever I'm trying to do
all i can think is you
I have been a fool
being used as a tool
stuck in the darkness that sees no light
while you are shinning in the light so bring
what happened to all that you said about love and me
those days, a plain fantasy
I am struggling in vain
living everyday with all these pain
maybe nothing was meant to be
you and me
nothing was never meant to be... ...
Don't read.
Saturday, June 6, 2009 11:39 PMAnyway..
Chakrit is a player. No wonder he's like the most famous actor in thailand that pulls off the best lovey dovey / r scenes.
Even though he's not that good looking... his charisma is infatuating.
Some person on a thread was obsessing over his jawline when he puckle his lips.
Then there was him frenching...
Okay I'm officially a fangirl now.
Oh and his show ends tomorrow night. I won't get to watch it when I go to thailand. sadded, i was looking forward to it D:
(:
They actually allow human to marry animals in taiwan.
To those old days.
2:48 PMLooked through saved stuff on my phone. Read my diaries again.
Then I texted my texted JunXi for some brotherly advice.
Couldn't sleep till almost 2am or something because my mind was running with things.
Watched Sawan Bieng after tuition. So dramatic.
It's so warm these days. 32 degrees?
Our eyeballs will get fried! Yes it will.
JANICE says:
i want to buy balloons for myself on my birthday
:D
4 days to Thailand.
7 days to getting my new shoes.
23 days to my birthday.
I feel inspired.
Mean what you once said.
I believe in many things.
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I believe in many things.
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Almost finished Mafia Tee Ruk. Left like 3 minutes when my itouch went dead.
Yes I was watching on my itouchy. And doing some work at the same time XD
Chakirt Yamnarm... The way his voice goes deep and husky when he whispers i-love-you's into his co-actress ear can make any girl's heart melt.
I decided to watch 5 mintues of another hollywood movie with him in it to hear him speak english. American accent-ish. He studied overseas since young, America, New Zealand and all those ang mo country. So cool.
Another thing he has in common with Utt. Let's see... the accent, the buddhist tattoo, and on and on.
I decided to watch Sawan Bieng again after like 1 year. I remember I was watching it with my relatives in Thailand and my cousins were all predicting when he's gonna rape her. Funny memories.
Haha I love the main actors in the show. They always act together too.
School today.
Physics was erm okay.
Geog at humanities room again. Amanda, Yew Rong, Ong Lai, Angela, Vania, Cheryl and I sat together. Talked throughout, oh well.
For brunch, went opposite with Amanda, Cheryl (to eat carrot cake together) and Vania and we went to sit with Mr Singh. And Nicholas joined in from no where. Anyway, started talking to Mr Singh about his love life. He was telling us how he never gave up wooing his wife since secondary school even though he was the last on the list of the many other hot guys chasing her. Then he started telling us, when we meet someone we love, must appreciate it and go for it. Lol!!
He's pimples-conscious.
Saw Mr Fadzly and started complaining about huge homework pile and told him how Mr Singh thinks that we're studying too much. Ha.
Walked to MRT station with Cheryl where she went to take bus.
That's all.
5 days to going to thailand.
24 days to my birthday.
(:
Let's see.
Thursday, June 4, 2009 10:10 PM(:
Can't wait to go to Thailand. Ahhh
I can't remember the last time I was so excited to go there... maybe like.. I don't know... how many years ago.
Maybe it's because these days I'm building up the atmosphere(:
I was begging my dad the whole of today to get the atenna at that house done so I can go watch Chakirt's serials 8D There's two of his serials airing now in Thailand, i can't wait to go watch them! :D I think majority of girls who watch his shows will fall in love with him because the characters he act is always so... potential husband-ish.
It's been a long time since I used those two words.. potential husband. Then there was CMI, cannot make it. Hahahahaha.
Watched Coraline with family today. It's scary :/
So not suitable for young kids.
But the movie is fun!!!
My mum was saying, 'If kids watch this they'll be freaked and won't there to sleep at night any more.' Hahaha
So today we did IC. I forgot to bring my picture?
So I asked my maid to bring it to AMK station so I can get it. Left school at 8.45am during Bio lesson and reached the station at 9-ish, waited till 9.05? Then rushed back and reached at 9.15 and realised class have not came down to do IC yet.
After IC making, went opposite to eat. First it was Amanda, Wai Siong and I. Then Justin joined, then Jia Qin, Casmelin and Vania. Then others sat at another table.
We bought ban mian and carrot cake. Yeah everyone was like kioping. I ended up eating a little and I paid for it --
Anyway, Justin was asking us if we wanna pon the remaining Geog and Chem lessons. So we started thinking of a plan. Since Justin is sick here was how it went...
1. Justin walks up to Miss Yep
2. *Coughs violently*
3. "Miss Yep, I have to tell you something."
4. *Coughs violently*
5. "I was tested for swine flu..."
6. *Moves closer and starts coughing*
7. "And I was tested positive of Influenza A"
8 "Can I go home?"
9. "Thanks Miss Yep!"
10. *Shakes her hand*
Ha. You can imagine Justin saying it.
Geog was boring. 2/4 peeps all sat together at the same table in Humans Rooms(: (except BJ)
But we got slpit up for some lame group thingy. I fell asleep in front of Mr Fadzly. Couldn't help it..
Chem spa was fun today!!! Made CUSO4 crystals! And mine was nice because I added like 8 spatulas of Copper (II) Oxide into the Suphuric acid :D So it was super saturated and crystalised nicely and fast. Did Lead Chloride precipitation powder thing too, but that experiment wasn't that fun.
Lesson ended 45 mins late? Then rushed to tuition. Today I walked a lot.
Tried to look for WWII books, but I saw the size of them and gave up. It's like mega thick!
Trie scanning your face on the printer's scanner, cool way to take photos!!! And you can do effects like you got bullied and got thrown into the wall with your face and hands pressed onto the glass. :D
Though the resolution is shitty.
I wonder if I should got for a photo walk...
I plan to do some work today but I doubt I'll do any because I have no mood ):
Oh well.
Tomorrow is the day... I must quickly watch finish the show.
And try not to start another one but I think I will.
Oh well.
Crap.
Jia Qin is going to Hong Kong tomorrow. Hope she has fun there!
Just happens that the Mafia show I'm watching now happens partly in Hong Kong too. Seems like a nice place to go(:
I want to see the world
WHY IS IT SO TEMPTING.
WHY OH WHY.
ok end scene of drama
Sighing.
6:01 PM
I keep googling all the shows he acted in and start watching them because all the serials he acts are really damn fun. And there's going to be one airing when I go back next week I hope :D Must bug my dad to get the antenna at that house fixed so I can watch that channel :D
Sigh and he's acted in like 40plus shows since 2000 ._.
He had like 6 shows out this year already ._.
Recognise him? The only straight guy in Iron Ladies.
I need to stop watching thai shows.
So I started one last night at 11.30pm and watched till 3am. Can't do anything because I just want to watch it. Because Chakrit's in it again. Oh fine I like his shows now, I can't help it.
So in this show he's a mafia gang leader, so much more like it.
I'm wasting my holidays away like that everyday. Sigh.
I wonder how it's like to live in Thailand for real. Life there seems okay, I think. Just that transport isn't convenient and such.
I wonder how it's like to live in a mansion of a multimillionaire. Imagine the house having a tennis court inside, an underground carpark to keep cars and bedrooms the size twice our classroom. That would be one helluva experience.
Always wanted to live in another country every since I was young. Like go study in a foreign country and live there for like a few years can come back. It's something new, an opportunity not many has.
Okay I'm going to stop talking.
Bio essays or the mafia show... hmm
After 2 days
Tuesday, June 2, 2009 7:48 PMI'm suffering from withdrawal symptoms again.
Thai shows are always damn sweet, sigh. And the guy's always so charming with the script.
Lol there's a reason why they show 3 shows a week on 3 different channels in Thailand. Everyone's addicted!
safely PG. and there's english subs :D quite accurate.
ahh he cries, then everyone watching at home cries.
they're both damn good actors so it's fun. like those two actors too(: they're like damn famous in thailand. the guy always act as an evil character, so in this show he's so soft, don't really match. oh and i just realised he acted bangkok dangerous!
okay shutting up, and looking for more shows. maybe.
school tomorrow.
After 3 days
Monday, June 1, 2009 5:04 PMI watched it all.
omg damn nice.
ah.
see, this is what happen when I watch Thai drama serials.
First, they meet and quarrel so it's a lot of fun.
Then the bad guys start to plot against them and a lot of misunderstanding happen.
And in the end, the bad guys ends up being crazy/killed/in jail and the everyone lives happily ever after when they finally confess to each other in the last episode.
Always like that.
Anyway, the lead actress is damn pretty. She's FHM's sexiest woman in Thailand or something. She's the person in the new Pantene commercial on TV now.
The previous one was another Thai actress who I like too.
At the end of the show when the guy actually cut his long hair (yes I was distracted by his long messy hair the entire 19 episodes), he's like damn hot. ;p
lalalala
ok stop obsessing, janice.
you're going back to thailand soon and buy all the magazines and watch all the shows with him in it. and buy his band albums.
:D
anyway i should be going.
I'll been sitting in front of the computer for HOURS.
hwhwhwhw
so much to do
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